God is sovereign. That means He has supreme power, He is above all. Psalm 135:6 says: Whatever the LORD pleases, He does, in heaven and in earth, in the seas and in all deeps. I wonder what possesses me to think it is good and reasonable to need things to go my own way.
When my children were toddlers they sometimes railed against my wishes for them. Most parents have experienced their youngster hanging from their hand, flopping about on the floor in a delirious fit of defiance and confusion. Sometimes as the mom, I’d squeeze his hand tighter, trying to keep control. Sometimes I let him go to fall on the floor and finish his fit.
I have been that child myself. Last week. If I could only take a deep breath and accept that my Father wants to heal my situation, that He will gently take me in a good direction. There would be no need for struggle or loss of balance. Toddlers can’t possibly know all of that though, and even if they did know it on some level, sometimes they are just too tired or sad or hungry and think they just can’t take it one more second. And me too.
I need only sit down in His light and know that He is, right at that moment, healing me. He is and He will. I will let my Sovereign Lord work and take me to a better place.
But for you who revere my name, the sun of righteousness will rise with healing in its rays. And you will go out and frolic like well-fed calves. Malachi 4:2
Meeting God at the Park 
In my church our pastor is currently preaching a series on Psalm 23. Yesterday, he talked about how sheep can be very dumb; acting on raw instinct and getting themselves into trouble.
Sometimes I’m like a dumb sheep wanting to throw a tantrum when things don’t work out the way I want. Your line, “I wonder what possesses me to think it is good and reasonable to need things to go my own way” hits the nail on the head.
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